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It looks like I’ll be entering a new season in life. I won’t go into details publically here (that’s what private posts are for!!) but let’s just say 2010 will be a defining moment in my life.

Personally I feel like everything about me is being sifted and shifted, and my faith in various institutions is turning into ash while my faith in a few friendships is being tested to the extreme (in a good way I hope!).

Well, that is it thus far. I’m looking forward to the future, whatever it may bring!

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Why is it that people expect an unconditional affection without exchanging anything in return?

It’s almost like I’m demanded to pour all of myself with the hope and knowledge that I will receive Jack squat–or worse nothing at all.

I’m not exactly sure where this thinking materialized, but one thing is clear–it has to end.

Friendships don’t endure with this mentality, and relationships often come to ruin when only one gives while the other only receives.

Love without sacrifice isn’t love, but enslavement, which can lead towards an unhealthy attachment to the one “being adored.”

I’ve seen this countless times and quite frankly it sickens me.

People need to realize when they are being used, and once enlightened terminate the pseudo relationship ASAP (plus avoid any collateral damage that may result from it’s ending).

If more people understood this, half of the talk shows and most politicians would be out of business.

– Posted from my iPhone

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When did life ever get so busy? Between tweeting, friendfeeding, texting, facebooking, blogging &YouTubing, I’ve found that living in the era of life streaming (which for you non-geeks means posting frquent updates about life online) to become a bit overwhelming.

While a large part of this is due to my iPhone (which makes is easy to tweet, Friendfeed, etc. more often), much of the blame rests with me and my desire to digitalize my life in cyber space for future generations to explore over.

So for the next 24 plus hours I’m going to tune out all social networks and refrain from texting.

Yes, even texting her.

This includes email as well (and I’m turning off push updates so my iPhone won’t alert me of the 100 plus messages that come through daily).

What will I do in the meantime? I’ll probably read a book or three (as I have dozens on my iPhone that are feeling neglected) or even go see a movie tomorrow (G-force, Harry Potter or the horrendous GI Joe).

So until Sunday, good night all! And don’t forget to get some exercise in the sunshine or catch a flick at the movie theatre).

Peace!

–Posted via iPhone

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So right now it’s past 4 AM, and I am at the hospital with friends and Amy’s family.

Right now I think the doctor stepped in (unsure as they kicked everyone but one person out of the room) so I fully expect the baby to arrive sometime this morning (hopefully before 8 AM).

Everyone else in the waiting room went home except for Amy’s parents, her oldest sister and I (we’re roughing it for until he is born).

I’ve uploaded a bunch of photos to Facebook already, and will update everyone on her current status from within it ad well (as I am not using Twitter as Facebook is more private).

Also, some people have been asking me about my relationship with Amy, as well as Miles her son, so here is the “short & sweet” version which should help kill a few rumors that have been spreading

• Amy and I are friends right now, but I do plan on courting/dating her later on
• Yes, I do love Amy, and yes she is my first love (no joke)
• I am not the biological father of her son, Miles (& yes, I’m still a virgin)

If you have any other questions, feel free to ask me on:

• Twitter: @Darnell
• Friendfeed: Friendfeed.com/Darnell
• Facebook: Facebook.com/DarnellClayton

Alrighty, I’m going to try to get 1 hour of sleep before Miles greets the world, so text me if want extra info peeps.

–Posted via iPhone

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After countless tweets, Facebook messages, Skype calls & text messages (when Twitter was down–AT&T made some serious $$$ off of me that day) I can finally say with certainty that I am in love with a woman who goes by the name of Amy Moore.

I first laid eyes upon her when we went to a prolife rally in Columbia, although I assumed that like most beautiful girls she was already taken (& let’s face it, they almost ALWAYS are).

Fast forward to earlier of this year & I discovered that she was single, although at the time I was not looking to get involved with anyone due to the global recession (as relationships are expensive–especially REAL blue roses).

After numerous tweet messages (a few of which accidently became public–Grrr evil Twitter API!), I slowly went from hesitantly liking this feisty girl to loving this sassy lady from the south.

While the future is uncertain (thanks to our ingenious politicians in both parties–Grrrrrr!!!!), I’m going to do whatever is in my power to make this relationship thrive.

There are more details to this story that I won’t post here, but if anyone who can keep a secret is interested in learning more, you can reach me at:

• Twitter: @Darnell
• facebook.com/DarnellClayton
• Phone: 864-990-2091

–Posted via iPhone

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Of all the emotions that I’ve experienced, I think love is the most complicated. Seriously, you are elated about a person throughout the entire day, and one small thing can make you worry over them.

It makes me almost feel like a parent or something (even though I am not one). But you often worry about their health and even the smallest things (like a potential spider bite) can throw you off (Grrrrrrrrrrr!!!!).

Although this is the first time I’ve been in love with someone special, I find that I become concerned over the smallest things (which usually isn’t me for the record).

While I have no regrets about being in love (as I think it makes life grand and is ultimately worth it), I wish there was a way to turn the “worry mode” off.

At least for a while.

(Image Credit: Southern Illinois University)

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